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Because for my fucking mind, now I lost her. It's been almost 2 years since November 2008. It's 1 year 10 months actually. At that time, I thought I can't do anything for her except love her because I'm in Malaysia and she's in Singapore. I know what she want, she's not interest in diamonds, leather bags, or any golds. I know she just wanted to have someone who love her by her side, but I'm not there to accompany her, hold her hand, watch sunset with her which I bet she will love it the most and by her side. I felt bad too because I'm not there with her and I can feel her pain too. So I made a biggest mistake in my life which make me regret till now is instead of leaving her, I fade away and I be a bad guy let her leave me. When she text me, I purposely late reply her and sometimes didn't reply her, didn't ask her "how are you ?" or care about her. It's not easy to do this you know ? It's really hurts me alot to do this to the girl and she's the only girl I love the most in whole entire life. It's really hard feeling until year of 2009 around February, she texted me and ask me to broke up and reply in calm way "ok", the truth is my teardrop keep flowing down. I thought if like this she could be better then is okay if I suffer. I rather miss her and love her quietly alone here. I'm really regret for didn't give her all my love, and I guess now I got my payback. I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone. Now I'm wishing she would reply my phone. But she made a decision that she wanted to move on, cause I was wrong. I guess now she maybe found her a replacement, I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby. Maybe I didn't know how to be a boyfriend because I'd never be before as you know me that I never be people boyfriend before before I know you. If now she could give me another chance, I'll appreciate it very much and I'll learn to be a greatest boyfriend to you because I love her, for real. Nothing but love for you. I don't know whether you remember or not you said 3 years time and you'll be 18 years and I finish my study and I can go Singapore then we could be together everyday. I remember everything you did to me and said to me. I still keeping nicely that the watch you bought for me as my 1st birthday present that I received, I put inside the box together with the envelope in my room because the white things around the stripe there break d so I keep it good cause it's very important to me this 3 things. Might be a little crazy huh ? Last time every message you texted me, I save it all and I don't want to delete it even my friend ask me who is this when they sneak my inbox and I just reply them "someone important to me." but sadly I got rob by those Malay and took my phone away and I lost all the messages, it's really sad for me. I'd kept that messages for 1 year+ and I wanted to show you but let those robber took away. I still love you here. If you get to read this, I hope after you read finish, you could text me, call me or msn pm me or Facebook me.

Sincerely from my heart,
Gary. xf.